Happy New Year! Hello 2012 :)

Happy New Year everyone!! 


I know I haven't blogged in a long time but I aim to change that this year. I've decided to blog once a week, on Sunday about the things that happen during the week, and any other random ramblings. I have big plans for this new year which are:

*Be a good Mum to Indi and do more things with her
*Turning 30!!!
*Graduate from Uni
*Find work
*Lose 10kg
*Save money
*Write more music
*Improve my guitar playing and singing
*Eat better, exercise more (which will help with the -10kg)
*Be more social and less of a hermit
*Hopefully find love


Totally do-able right?? By blogging once a week I'm hoping I will be able to look back at the end of 2012 and see all the things Indi and I achieved. Lots of big changes will be happening this year and I'm excited :)

My challenge will be overcoming my shyness (to a degree as its a permanently etched trait Im afraid) and putting myself out into the world more. I have been studying for the past 5 years and was a FT stay-at-home Mum before that, so getting back into the work force will be my biggest challenge but one I'm also looking forward to. I'm looking forward to saving some money and getting back into a place of our own again and hopefully saving for a new car as my current car is in its Golden Years and I'm not sure how much longer she will hold out. 


Over the past two years I've managed to lose 13kg (although I recently put about 4 back on...eek!) so I am hoping I can lose this final 10kg and finally be at my goal weight. Thanks to an idea from a good friend, I'm going to give myself the whole year to lose it as its usually a slow process, but in saying that, I do find that slow and steady does win the race with weight loss and being able to keep it off. I'm hoping I can lose it in 6months but wont be putting any pressure on myself. I can't wait to be able to look at myself in the mirror and like what I see. Over the past 2years I've also started to learn to love myself for who I am I be happy with the body I was given. So I call it my work-in-progress and I'm half way there and I look forward to the end result and to feel even more fit and healthy, and in the process set a good example for Indi. 


So the next challenge will be turning 30! I dont know why that seems like such a scary thing but it does scare me! I think maybe because there was so much I wanted to have achieved by 30 that I haven't that it makes me feel unprepared. I wanted to be in a relationship, with maybe another kid or two, have a good job, be paying off a house, have a nice car etc etc.....But unfortunately life had other plans for me. My brother-in-law told me that despite where I wanted my life to be at 30, that where I am now is where I am meant to be. I tend to agree I think. My life seems to have played out in the reverse tradition compared to others. I was in a long-term relationship at a very young age (17-24) and then had a baby at the tender age of 21. My life didnt play out in the traditional sense whereby I would finish school, go to Uni, graduate, get a good job, then find love, get married, buy a house, have kids.......But I do appreciate the experiences my life has given me so far, even if it was a little in the reverse order. Besides, I think I'm too much of a free spirit to be one to do things in a 'traditional' sense anyway :) So hopefully my 30s will be the years that I will do all the things I had planned to do in my 20s, I just have to make sure I let myself be open to the new experiences and not shy away from them like I would normally do. 


This year I also aim to focus a lot more on my music as well. Even though it is just my hobby on the side and I dont have any delusions of grandeur as to where it will take me. I'm not convinced that I'm even that good, but its something that I love to do with all my heart and it makes me feel happy and true to myself, so that is reason enough for me to keep going with it. I'm hoping that the experiences that 2012 brings me will also give me inspiration for my songwriting and the confidence to keep making videos to put on YouTube. My sister actually made a joke when we were having lunch at a popular Pub/Resturant here when she saw an ad on the TV at the bar for 'Open Mic' nights that we should have a go. We laughed it off but that would actually be something that would be really fun to do! Although a lot of alcohol may be required to gain the courage to do so! So maybe I will put that on my bucket list as well and maybe performing at my 30th bday party first would be a great place to start :) 


Ok, I think I've rambled enough for now, have you fallen asleep yet?? This blog will probably mostly be filled with my own ramblings and boring updates on what we got up to during the week, but I do think it would also be something that will be great to look back on at the end of this year, and I hope at the end of 2012 I will be able to say that I can tick off every item on that list.


If you manged to get through all this reading, thank you! (and you deserve a medal or something). So now I will go and enjoy this first day of 2012 and see which one of my resolutions I can work on today. 


I wish you all a very healthy, safe, prosperous, exciting, new year filled with love and happiness. I hope all your wish for comes true and don't forget to follow your heart and your dreams.


'Til next Sunday, peace out 
Jay
xoxo


P.s. For those who find themselves slightly intrigued about the videos I put on YouTube, here is the link: http://www.youtube.com/user/Jaybird8206 . I try to post videos fairly regularly so feel free to subscribe, 'like/dislike', comment etc...It may give just you something to laugh at, scoff at, cringe at, or you may actually enjoy my amateur attempt at expressing my creativity (or lack thereof) :)